Monday 9 January
4 weeks, 2 days sober (30 days)
RR 100%

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen

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Remember for today:
Giving the world 5 free passes to be wrong in advance today.
As you go feelings inventory/awareness.
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30 days sober! Busy weekend but in a good way. Definitely prioritising an early night tonight though above all. Got to 5 twelve step meetings last week (Monday – Sunday) and the thing is it’s become a case that going to these meetings is now the thing I enjoy most in life! Important to never get complacent though and if there comes a time when I don’t feel like going to a meeting to go anyway.

Sunday 8 January
4 weeks 1 day sober (29 days)
RR 100%

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen

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God, Make my an instrument of thy peace!
That where there is hatred, I may bring love.
That where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness.
That where there is discord, I may bring harmony.
That where there is error, I may bring truth.
That where there is doubt, I may bring faith.
That where there is despair, I may bring hope.
That where there are shadows, I may bring light.
That where there is sadness, I may bring joy.

God, grant that I may seek to comfort, rather than to be comforted.
Seek to understand, rather than to be understood.
Seek to love, rather than to be loved.
For it is by self-forgetting that one finds.
It is by forgiving that one is forgiven.
It is by dying that one awakens to Eternal Life.
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Nice day with friends yesterday. Didn’t get to a 12 step meeting yesterday, but as of now I have realised that 12 step meetings are the thing I enjoy doing more than anything! They aren’t any kind of chore! I’m going to one today that I went to once before about a month ago and haven’t been there since so really looking forward to that.

Saturday 7 January
4 weeks sober (28 days)
RR 100%

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen

Woo 4 weeks sober! Similar to something I said in an earlier blog, it feels like it’s been a long 4 weeks but in a good way – as in I feel like I have really grown a lot spiritually during this time by working my 12 step programme. Important not to get complacent though and essential to continue working the programme and maintain my efforts!

Friday 6 January
3 weeks, 6 days sober (27 days)
RR 100%

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference
Amen.

There have been some really powerful shares at the last 2 meetings I’ve been to. When I returned home last night I can honestly say I felt the presence of God. I was just feeling to happy, from deep within me. It was 10 times more powerful and real than any temporary buzz I have gained from acting out which I know is not real relief. So yeah, want to continue getting to as many meetings as is humanly possible.

Remember – 5 free passes for the world today
- Take spot check feelings inventory as you go.

Thurs 5 Jan
3 weeks, 5 days sober.
RR 100%

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen.

Just listened to a song called “If we are the body” by Casting Crows which is a Christian song. It’s really put me in a good mood for the day. Just want to refresh my mind that I am giving the world 5 chances in advance to be “wrong” today! And to do my spot check feelings inventory as I go through the day. And just to try to be nice and helpful/caring to people and not focus on if people’s working lives are easier/better than mine or if life is unfair and all that rubbish.